It is quite an interesting twist of Fate. You are on vacation... and my internet is sucking up besides the fact that certain things have come up that are preoccupying me. Most of all, if these things work out, the dreams I have long forgotten may begin to take shape.

(I am not supposed to be thinking this but I do think that you might be thinking I am so busy and also trying to avoid you. I am not avoiding you. I wish I could talk to you. I wish I could talk to you every night, every morning, every single day... I wish I could call you....... I WISH YOU WOULD CALL... But I know you to well...)

This is an exciting and yet scary time in my life. I wish I had you even just for a moment to share it all with... even just as a friend.

I want to drop a short message... even just a "hi". But I will not deny that I am scared. And so I will wait until better news has come. I know I once hated you but now, I truly want you to see the best I can be like you use to say you have wanted me to be.


P.S.
I still miss you and I wish one day you would write me and tell me the same.