There's a small chance that I would do it but if I do decide to do it... I will most definitely do it.

And so in this blog site where none of the people who personally know me has any knowledge of, I make my small confession that I have once again been contemplating suicide.

I have finally opened up to my sister but she has not helped me much. And so I consider it futile opening up to anyone for that matter. And the only time anyone will ever hear about this again is when I do it.

Life has been one huge torment. And if they say it is punishment for sins... we all came out here oblivious and innocently sinning. And sin has been so imbued in our system that we quote to ourselves that we are but only human.

I am human. And yet I cannot resort to saying I err. As an adult - as a mature individual - I am expected only one thing: To own up to my mistakes. To own up to my actions and deeds. To be responsible for all that occurs and how I react to them.

To be continued...